Storms...

I am in a storm. A personal storm with myself. Some days the storm calms down and others it doesn't seem to stop..it seems like it gets stronger and stronger. Its like when Jesus was sleeping on the boat and there was a storm and all the had to say was "peace be still." I need this storm to be still and all I feel like I have to do is call on Jesus right?? .. Well I think that I am in this storm for a reason, like this storm is supposed to show me who I am, why I am and how I am. This storm is necessary..But how long is it supposed to last? How long do I have to feel this storm..How long do I have to fight for that peace within myself? Why am I in this to begin with.. Because I am lost. I feel like I keep running up and down a long hallway and I keep missing that turn where Jesus is waiting for me, calling me .. But yet I keep running? I sometimes feel like I am Paul and I just need to have the faith step out of the boat and just walk to god and keep all my focus on him, because I know that if I lose focus than I lose faith. I have the answers to my question but yet and still don't put them into action.? Why do I do that ..Why do I fight and fight and fight and get tired of it when all I have to do is...turn that corner, step out that boat..have faith that god will make it alright, that my storm will be still. I am in a storm..But i'm also stepping out the boat.