Somethings you just cant do...

I hate it when people only tell you how they feel when they have reached a state of vulnerability... it makes me question if it is truly genuine or is it just a front to get what they want.. I hate it when you let people know how you feel...only to continue feeling unheard..maybe I am asking to much to be heard, or maybe just maybe I am asking way to much for people to be real with me...I dont know what to do anymore... I am me I will tell you what I want when I want it and I will tell you how I feel, but what I give I want in return. I dont want/nor do I need to become numb..I dont want to stop feeling so that I dont have to hear the same things over and over, or so that I just dont care how a persons feels anymore. That is not who I am, That is not who I want to be. I am making decisions for me now and only me and all I ask is support...if I fall encourage me to get back up..if I drown let me know that you are there so I will find the strenght to pull myself back up..if im down for the count let me hear you in my corner so that I will stay in the fight...im not asking you to pick me up and im not asking you to fight my battles all I ask is that you let me know that you are there. I know that God has my back regardless of any situation that I go through he is there every step of the way when I scrape my knee he is ready with a spiritual band-aid..lol..So God is my partner, my best friend, my ace boon koon..and if you dont want to be there than okay..God's got my back.