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someone told me that it is better to leave the words you want to say unsaid...I think that is complete b.s. If you don't know how to tell me something, than you don't trust me. I am not a little girl, I don't judge, I am easy to talk to, so what is the reason why you cant find the words...you find the words to things I question why I hear...I feel like I am going in circles...Just tell me what you want with me so that I can be done....I just want to be done. I can no longer be who I am, I can no longer feel the way that I do about you because all of your words are left unsaid and your actions are nonchalant, so I cannot put myself through the same thing and end up with the same results. I need to stop, I need to be done, but every time I try to walk away, you whisper a sweet nothing in my ear and make me think that things will turn out the way that I want them to..but what I want are words..what I want is emotion...it has been way to long for me not to be able to have that..for me to sit around waiting for even the smallest commitment. You say that you don't know what you want, you say that its complicated, you say you like where we are..but where are we...because sometimes I feel like we are in two different places..sometimes I feel like if I just disappeared, you wouldn't notice until you wanted something from me. I am not saying that I am being used, I am just saying that I don't understand what you want. I'm so confused...it makes me laugh when you think I am unhappy..because normally I am happy...I really am..but sometimes you have this way of throwing me off track when you play these silly games.. I tell you no once and I am playing a game..but when I ask you how you feel about me...or what you want from me and you go around in circles as if it were some type of game, I get confused...I am dizzy...and am going to sit down for awhile because...I cant keep doing this. I need someone who knows what they want, and is not afraid to grab hold of a good thing and not let it go...I am not sure you realize..that once I'm really gone..I'm never coming back.