So I wait....

The one thing that I hat to do is wait...I am a person for immediate results I hate waiting on things, people, I hate waiting on life itself to happen..And now I am in a place of waiting, now I must sit back and wait, wait for the things that I want, wait for the things that I need, wait for the opportunities to happen. I must wait. The reason why I hate waiting so much is the disappointment that comes when you don't get what you waited so long for. When you want something so bad that you start waiting on it, knowing(thinking) that it is going to happen...that wen it comes time for it..Nothing..I hate that..I cant stand that..it makes me want to scream because the hurt and pain that comes with the disappointment and the fact that you waited you hoped you wished and than nothing...that's a lot to handle a lot to take in and it hurts..Maybe its my fault, maybe I shouldn't anticipate things as much as I do..maybe I should always have a gleam of doubt just in case things don't go my way..But that's no way to be..and that is defiantly not who I am...So thats why I just sit and I wait.