An Overdue Praise...And a Hidden Word..

A lot of times you will hear people say "everything happens for a reason." Personally I say it all the time. There are times where I think that it should be said "God does things for a reason," but if its a bad thing I feel as though that would give people a excuse to take it out on him. In my life everything has taught me a lesson, I can be the most hard headed person in the world at times, there are times where I see people make mistakes and rather than learn from them I have repeated them with the mindset of " maybe I can do it differently, I wont make the same mistake as them," only to find out in the end that I was so wrong. For the last couple months I have not been to church I have not given God the praise that he deserved, I have not prayed the way that I should have prayed. But for the last couple days all that has changed, it may have been an overdue praise, but I praised God without holding back and it felt oh so good. I heard a word that touch my heart and warmed my soul. The question is where do I go from here on out? I know that God deserves all my praise and all my praise he will have, but physically where do I go from here? Will I be at a place with God that I am able to leave home again and do what (I) feel is best? Is that whats best? I am at a crossroads, I have made up plan after plan after plan trying to figure out exactly what I need to do to make things work for me and for God, and maybe that is staying home and receiving what God has in store for me here, being who God has called me to be here. So that must be the answer to my questions, I cant move until God tells me to, and right now he is saying to stay. Its not about me anymore, it is bigger than me, I cannot afford to have a overdue praise and a hidden word, I need to get mine every chance that I get.