Breakthrough...

Since I have been home I have felt like a visitor in my own home...its not my families fault its my own..I have felt like a visitor everywhere I was used to being before, like I was intruding, like I was stepping into someone else space..I didn't feel wanted or needed..I felt like I wanted to run right back to texas...But wasnt that what I did the first time???...I knew that I needed to come home...but I am so glad that god allowed me to go through everything that I did to get where I am...because slowly but surely I am finding myself, I am breaking through....I am determined to grow up and to make sure that I keep moving forward without looking back or without wishing hoping and dreaming of what coulda, shoulda, woulda...Im done with that...When I came back there seemed to have been a rumor that I was away at school..(wow) well for the record I wasnt I moved to texas to pay bills...lol..the truth is that I moved because I wanted to be "grown"...and I ended up right where I started back at home with mom and dad...I say that to say that I learned not everything you do is the right thing to do, but I promise that everything you do...you learn from it and it becomes a stepping stone in your pond...because now I am breaking through, now I am finding out who I am in God...because I am tired of doing things half way and not giving it all I have got...Im done being someone who just talks and isnt about anything...because as of now...I have a job, I am in school and I am taking care of everything that needs to be taken care of with me and my life so that when I go to sing with the praise team or the choir..I can make sure that I am up there giving my all to Jesus so that somebody will get blessed...My time is up and now I need to just breakthrough.