Why scream and shout....Just wait...

The two questions that I am beginning to dread are "How was college?" and "Why are you back from Texas?" For some odd yet understandable reason, while I was in the lone star state there seemed to have been a rumor that I was in college, sad to say but the truth..and let me clear this up now was I WAS NOT IN COLLEGE...its an inconvenient and unfortunate truth but nonetheless the truth. The reason that I came back from Texas is because I needed to...I wasn't forced..I didn't get in a big blow out and run all the way back home...but as far as spiritual stability goes I needed to come back home..and so I did...Now I am at a place in my life where I am trying to figure things out one step at a time I cant stress and scream and shout I have to be patient and just wait...like the saying goes..good things come to those who wait..and so I wait. My sister wrote on her blog(sorry 4 stealing your story) about a man who ate organic meat for 30 days to see if there was a difference or change in how he felt..and on the 30th day he felt nothing...he felt the same way he felt before he started his experiment so he ate non-organic meat and just a bite...made him sick..what my sister went on to say was that even though we may not feel god moving in our lives or see a change in our atmoshpere or in ourselves does not mean that there isn't one...because just one time we can turn around and go back to what we feel we can and we get sick..whether it be mentally, physically or spiritually....and it made me realize ... I don't wanna be sick, I don't wanna go back to what used to be..I want to keep eating my organic meat..forget normal meat..lol..I know that even if I didnt feel a change it happening...even if I don't see a change its happening ... I know this because I have a God who can do anything and he is working on me whether I feel it or not..and I am also working on myself. So here is food for thought ... What are you eating and how does it make you feel??