Long time.. No talk..

So..wats been up?? Not much just work and getting ready to get ready for school..lol.

I am learning to wait, they say that good things come to those who wait, and I have always been that type of person to try to rush things I don't like to wait. Now I am learning because I have begun to notice that when I try to do speed up the process something always seems to go wrong. In more senses than one.. Today I was reminded that I was waiting for my night and shining armor..It was not like I forgot but at the same time I needed a reminder.. I have been reminded of so many things lately, things that I know but choose not to hear from myself, heck I barely choose to hear it from anyone else, But right now I realize that I left cali, thinking that I could not be changed that I will not let anything around me influence me or how I feel..But has it?? H.. E..double hockey sticks.. yes!!..lol..But yet with such a stubborn attitude I choose to have an attitude of, I can change I will choose not to let things influece me..but determination does not force itself on you, it is something that you have to want, something that you have to grasp, something that no one can give to you or do for you..determination is only something that you choose to have..I keep saying that I want to be determined, But in the end its words, true determination is a combination of perseverence and fight. And for me to question if I have it is a no..

So the big question is what do I really want, what do i need to be determined about, ...

wow..I really just went from waiting to a compltly different subject.